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I thought this journal was abandoned... [19 Oct 2010|03:58pm]
Hello, old livejournal. Here I am again. Me. Your negligent owner who could not delete you, but left you here... an abandoned cybershrine to the huge chunk of my life you once occupied.

What am I doing back? Why, I am once again glutting myself on fanfic. Specifically, Severus Snape fanfic. Before I take the plunge and READ THE LAST BOOK.

Yes, I still have not read it. Book Seven. The one that came out over 3 years ago, and that I bought at midnight on the day of its release. I did open it. Once. I even read the last few pages. I saw who lived, who died, the cheesy ending, and then I closed it and put it on its shelf with the others, where it has remained.

Yes, I'm serious.

You know, at this point it would suit me fine if I never read the damned thing. You see, a horrible but inevitable thing happens in this book. My Severus Snape ends. I still can't even say it! Ok... He DIES. And as much as I know that is how it should end, because what sort of life would he have had after Voldemort is defeated? Can you really imagine him going on teaching once that commitment to Dumbledore has been fulfilled? People would still shun him on the street. There would always be rumors. Or worse yet... what if he was actually vindicated and made a hero... how could he resolve himself to that life with all the horrors he has committed over the years? Even if they were done For The Good -- he would still have to live with himself and his memories. How would he move on? Could anyone? How could he ever have a "normal" life? And how could anything close to "normal" ever appeal to him, after all he has seen and lived through? So yeah, I knew it had to happen. And I would have killed him off too, if I had I written the series.

As much as I know it has to happen, I can't bear to read it.

But so now I'm faced with this big two-part epic movie that is soon to start playing, and I know I won't be able to resist seeing it. And I guess I'd rather read the "true" account of the ending before I see the watered-down and probably very-much-changed version that will play on the big screen. So I can't put it off any longer.

So... before I kill off my Demon Lover in my mind (*sob*) I have pretty much just abandoned myself to Snape-centric fanfic for the past few months. So that I could get my fill of him. I have read everything I can find. I have reread all of my old favorites. I've even delved into some Snape/Hermione het. (Desperation) And yet, I'm still not ready. I guess I'm waiting for that one great fanfic that I haven't yet found.

The movie comes out on November 11th. I want to read the entire series again before I finally crack the last book. That means I am giving myself a deadline. Halloween. October 31st. That is when I guess I will put Snape to rest.

I would love some recs. If anyone sees this post, that is. I know it is hard to condense it down to a few, but what are your favorite Snape/Harry (yes, its my OTP) stories that you've ever read? The ones that you keep going back to again and again?
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Fanfic on Kindle 2 [03 Mar 2009|04:51am]
[ mood | giddy ]

So, um.... hi! :)
Is anyone still here?

Just posting out of curiosity because I just got my spiffy new Kindle 2 from Amazon and after a week of frantic book downloading it finally occurred to me tonight... OMG fanfiction! LOL So I've spent the last couple of hours figuring out how to convert all my favorite fanfics to Kindle books!! (complete with fanart covers!! ) There is no way this should make me so joy-filled, but yet I AM. Pure GLEE, I'm telling you. Like a kid on a sugar high. And so now it has been so long since I've been part of this world that realized I have no one to GUSH over this with...

Does anyone out there have a Kindle?

Have you converted your favorite fanfics yet?

Do you want to trade files?

There is no way I have time to do this, but... I'm suddenly picturing a website of fics all formatted for easy download... would anyone want this except me?

What a weird way to get back into fandom.

I really should go to bed now. It's almost 5am!

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[05 Apr 2007|12:54pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]


*waves shyly*

Just wondering if anyone still watches this journal.

If you see this, please comment and let me know. I'd like to start posting again and am debating on I should salvage this journal or just start over.

Something to entertain you:

Awesomely HOT Tribal Fusion Bellydance
(done to a wicked techno version of my favorite Billie Holiday song)

...nope. I've not changed that much. ;)
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[21 Nov 2005|12:25am]
To quote luthien:
"Fandoms are like love affairs.

Sometimes you just move into them so gradually you don't even realise what's happening until you're right in the middle of something serious. Other times they hit you like a ton of bricks and with the white hot intensity of a thousand suns.

And then there are the old loves. Sometimes they end up being all ashes and bitterness and never to be revisited. Other times they'll turn into occasional fuck-buddies. Or just comfortable friends."

Harry, my love, we both know it's been coming to this. I still care about you so much and what we've had together these past two years -- it's been one of the best experiences of my life. But something has been missing lately, and I think that it is just that we are moving in different directions. I still love you. I probably always will. And I still think you are incredibly hot (especially with Snape). But I don't want our passion to slowly fizzle out to nothing -- we should just part now, as friends. I'm sure we'll still bump into each other from time to time. We have so many mutual friends, it would be impossible not to! So let's plan to get together again soon. Maybe we can have a few drinks and talk about old times and who knows where things will lead us? ...or maybe not. No pressure. We'll just wait and see what happens. I hope you know that you'll always be my first love, and I really doubt any will ever compare to you. <3

LOL -- I realize I'm a dork. But I just wanted to make a post for anyone who still has me friended, and give a small update. I totally understand if anyone wants to take me off their list. So if you've been thinking of it but have been hesitant, now is the time to do it. I won't take it personally. I rarely post anymore and when I do, it's not often of HP-related content. RL is taking up so much of my life, and I read fic about once a week at most, skim my friends list maybe twice that much.

But I am still around, and I've been thinking I might just take back this journal for my own, non-fandom related thingie. Whatever that may be. hahahahaha So maybe some of you might want to stick around? Awesome. :) But either way, just wanted to say that I love you all.

And I'm still thinking I might go to Lumos next summer!
You're not completely rid of me.
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[22 Oct 2005|10:28am]
nimori has started an ART round robin!

Funny, funny stuff.

What? Did you think I wasn't here anymore? That this journal had been abandoned? Hahahhahaaa -- Not at all. I still read my friends list, just never comment. I'm still here, lurking in the background.
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From rosesanguina: [01 Oct 2005|12:02am]
[ mood | lonely ]

If you have anything to say to the person who posts this, say it to them. If you love them, tell them. If you hate them, tell them. Whatever you have to say to this person, even if it's something you're having trouble saying, if the person posts this entry, say it to them. You may never get a chance to again, so just do it.

I'm screening comments, so say whatever you will. Anonymous is fine, too.

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to my beloved [19 Sep 2005|10:50am]
From eumenides1:

When you see this, post a poem you like on your LJ.
As I would free the white almond from the green husk
So I would strip your trappings off,
And fingering the smooth and polished kernel
I should see that in my hands glittered a gem beyond counting.

'Aubade' by Amy Lowell
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[15 Sep 2005|10:26pm]
[ mood | impressed ]

So... today is day one of my new plan to only allow myself 2 hours of computer time per day.

Two hours is still quite a lot, isn't it. You would think it wouldn't change things too much.

Things I have managed to do since getting home from work today (after working 9.5 hours):

  • Go grocery shopping.
  • Cook a meal. With meat and vegetables and bread and stuff. And not even all in one dish!
  • Watch a movie.
  • Paint my toenails.
  • Wash two tubs of clothes.

    And I still had my two hours online.

    Aaaaand... I'm now going to go to bed before 11 pm!!!!!

    Dude. This could change my life.
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    5 idiosyncrasies [13 Sep 2005|01:10am]
    [ mood | sleepy ]

    just how weird is she?Collapse )

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    [04 Sep 2005|12:47am]
    Katrina evacuees distraught over pets
    9/4/2005, 12:13 a.m. CT
    The Associated Press

    ATLANTA (AP) — As Valerie Bennett was evacuated from a New Orleans hospital, rescuers told her there was no room in the boat for her dogs. She pleaded. "I offered him my wedding ring and my mom's wedding ring," the 34-year-old nurse recalled Saturday. They wouldn't budge. She and her husband could bring only one item, and they already had a plastic tub containing the medicines her husband, a liver transplant recipient, needed to survive.

    Such emotional scenes were repeated perhaps thousands of times along the Gulf Coast last week as pet owners were forced to abandon their animals in the midst of evacuation.

    In one example reported last week by The Associated Press, a police officer took a dog from one little boy waiting to get on a bus in New Orleans. "Snowball! Snowball!" the boy cried until he vomited. The policeman told a reporter he didn't know what would happen to the dog.

    At the hospital, a doctor euthanized some animals at the request of their owners, who feared they would be abandoned and starve to death. He set up a small gas chamber out of a plastic-wrapped dog kennel.

    "The bigger dogs were fighting it. Fighting the gas. It took them longer. When I saw that, I said 'I can't do it,'" said Bennett's husband, Lorne.

    Please. If you only have $5 to give, everything helps. I've never begged for anyone to give money to a charity before in my life, but if you have a pet that you love or if you ever had one, please give just a little something in their honor.

    I know I posted these links a couple of days ago, but this is information that needs repeating again and again. All of these organizations are helping right now to rescue pets in towns hit by the hurricane, and are in great need of donations. This is not just in New Orleans, but in Slidell and on the Mississippi coast, and anywhere there is a need. You can find out more information on what each group is doing by following the links.

    Noah's Wish

    The Humane Society

    American Humane

    International Fund for Animal Welfare

    ASPCA Hurricane Relief Fund

    Northshore Animal League

    EARS: Emergency Animal Rescue Service
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